Emma could still recollect the first day she saw her sister; it was after a long time. When the cell opened, she saw a figure resembling that of a human being with pale face, parched lips, sunken eyes and protruding check bones. Emma couldn’t convince herself that; this lean figure trying her best to give a smile is her own sister. “Eve is here in the rehabilitation centre for the past few months”, said the doctor in charge. We were always disturbed regarding her responsibity. “Where were you all this time? What made you come back now, huh!? Maybe you simply wanted to know whether she is dead or alive, ain’t you? The sarcasm in his tone made her cry……tears started rolling down her cheeks. Doctor …she couldn’t complete; Drugs have ruined her physically as well as mentally. She is also suffering from ‘SuicidalMania’. I have no words to explain how we saved her life last time. That was definitely a miracle. I strongly feel that your presence would help her
improve
Back at her flat, Emma went through the only album which she had kept close to her, when she decided to leave her house at the age of 25.She remembered how her mother shed tears knowing her decision was final. When she got a job for which she had been trying hard, she couldn’t reject it. Her mother’s effort to deviate her from this simply went in vain. But now for the first time in her life, she felt that she is a looser. She couldn’t take care of her sister when she needed her presence, love and affection the most. Eve was only ten years old then. Now stepping on to her mid twenties, Eve’s face showed more of wrinkles and strain. Emma found it difficult to stomach the fact.
“Madam!” she was suddenly woken up from those chains of thoughts by her maid Julie. Julie, “Please don’t disturb me for a while.” But Mam, did you drop this diary down there near to your car, I found it near the porch ‘Diary’ it took almost a minute for the word to settle in her mind as she was lost in thoughts. This is Eve’s diary. Emma managed to get it from the doctor in charge after a lot of efforts. Despite of treating Eve for the past few months, he failed in getting to know what circumstance might have led Eve in to the world of drugs. It was before two days that he came to know about this diary; it was the maid who found it from her shelf, as she was cleaning the room. It was safely kept beneath her clothes, may be she didn’t want others to know about this. Emma managed to spend some time with doctor this time when she got this diary from him. It was from him she came to know that Eve was found unconscious near a park. She was brought in here by some social servers. She had a bag with her………..
Eve was always different. She loved loneliness and enjoyed reading books. Music was her passion and her paintings were simply awesome; I definitely did secretly admire Eve’s talent in photography and painting, she thought. She remembered how Mom found it really awkward to take Eve for parties. She kept away from clubs and other friends of her age. Her world was really small with books, music, paintings and the photos which she took. Emma felt that her paintings were living. She could see and feel the essence of life in her photos too….I was the only friend or person with whom Eve was happy and comfortable. She was one reason why Emma decided to return to
her native place. Emma used to imagine the changes in Eve; she was shocked to hear from her neighbours that she is in the rehabilitation centre. Emma still has no idea about neither her brother nor her parents. Her brother Edwin is elder to Eve and younger to Emma by 5 years.
Emma felt that she would be definitely able to find a hint from Eve’s diary. She was really happy when she found Edwin’s address in it, and assumed that her parents would be definitely with him. She felt that she should read Eve’s diary before making a call to let Edwin know that she is here.
Hours scrolled away…………….
She was sweating, tears rolled down her cheeks, she was heart broken when she read that their parents died in an accident. Edwin didn’t find it much difficult to dump her to a lunatic asylum; as she never spoke after our parents died. She couldn’t overcome the shock. By doing so his first plan was done perfectly. The second step was to give orders to one of his friends at the asylum to give small amount of drugs along with Eve’s food. By doing so for a few months made her an addict. Finally everything was done well with her. Emma couldn’t believe what she was doing. She couldn’t believe her eyes nor believe what happened to her sister. Her phone started buzzing all of a sudden that shook her from her thoughts.
Doctor: Is this Emma speaking?
Emma:Yes,mayI know whois this?
Doctor: This is doctor from the rehabilitation centre. I am sorry to tell
that you Eve committed suicide. We couldn’t help. She had left a
note for you. I would like you to collect it as soon as possible.
At the hospital, Emma knew that she won’t be able to see Eva’s pale bloodless face for last time. She made arrangements for everything and came back to her flat with the note.
The letter said:
Emma, I wanted you to know what happened to me.
Perhaps this is my fate. I have no regrets. I became a victim of his selfish
needs. I didn’t become an addict by my will….When I came to know about what was happening to me, it was already late. Now, even if I get out of this rehabilitation centre, I won’t be able to lead a normal life without drugs. I
still love you. Bye forever……..
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
The blameless fate
THE BLAMELESS FATE
Alarm started buzzing right on to her ears; it is 11:30 in the night. Mabel had to force herself out of the bed, half an hour to go; 27th October is Sasha’s birthday. Mabel has to prepare her favourite chocolate cake and gift wrap the ‘E’ series mobile which she has got for Sasha .She had been following this particular routine for the past 14 years, Sasha will turn 15 today. Seldom does Mabel remember that she is getting old, only when she cares to watch her wrinkled skin and the grey lock of hair. Now she is finding it difficult to run through her daily routine like how she did it a few years before. She knew that by now, her body is being tied by the heavy chains of tiredness; it kept on pulling her back. Mabel started expecting her gentle friend ‘death’ at any time. She felt that her life would be complete only when she reveals that truth to Sasha, about her identity and her parents. Mabel rushes to get everything ready and decides to take rest till it turns 12:00.It is then she spots an album kept on the top of the dining table.
Turning the stained yellowish pages of her album, she could recollect her tame less days of college life; An easy going psychology student, that was like a paradox; any one would expect some level of seriousness in a psychology student which Mabel always lacked. Memories stayed fresh just like the newly bloomed roses with little drops of dew on it. One photo showed Mabel tightly hugging on to a young beautiful girl, intimacy between them was clearly seen from the very frame. ’Farah’ whispered; Mabel with a heavy sigh. Right from the time they were in orphanage till college they shared a same apartment, not only the apartment; Mabel’s love to Farah was so very pure, immense and unconditional; till they parted ways when Mabel fell in love with her class mate Mike. Farah personally didn’t support the idea. She strongly felt it was not the time to be in an affair. There was a point of time when Mabel had to choose between Farah and Mike; she conveniently went on with Mike which eventually forced Farah to go in for a different apartment. Mabel painfully remembered how she sacrificed her soul mate for her love.
Situation worsened when Mike ruthlessly ditched Mabel washing his hands off from all his responsibilities when he got to know that she was pregnant. This was not what Mabel expected from him; brought up like a bastard in an orphanage she couldn’t even think of giving birth to a baby to live through allies in there .She now had to pay too much for her actions, she missed Farah’s presence badly. Without having an idea on what exactly to do, whether to abort or to even keep the baby; for the first time after Farah had left, she could clearly feel the helplessness of being born as a woman. She miserably regretted for having put a stop to her college life for Mike. With all his memories haunting her; mentally broken down Mabel finds refuge in drugs and alcohol. The feeling of loneliness had almost driven her go out of mind. One day, she falls unconscious near a tunnel and was rushed to a hospital, where she slips on to a comma sort of stage completely left unnoticed; she had lost her baby by then, out of severe bleeding.
Two years Later………………………………..
Farah at the time in the peak of her fashion career gets awarded as the best designer of the year. She always wanted to do some charity if she ever got the award. It was like a dream come true for her. It is out of her immense happiness that she decides to visit a number of orphanages and hospitals. Quite unexpectedly, she gets a chance to visit the hospital where Mabel had got admitted long before. Passing through each room and spending time with the patients she made it sure that; none should feel that she was doing it all for a mere publicity. In fact her Manager had a tough time in keeping the entire programme a secret and avoiding Media persons. She never dreamed even in the worst of her night mares that she will get to see Mabel in such a pathetic condition. Farah finds it damn difficult to stomach the fact that, the pale lean figure lying in front of her helplessly is her long time friend Mabel. She didn’t know on what should be her next move, she desperately wanted to hug Mabel….Tears had already started its way down her cheeks; Farah was scared even to hug her…she felt that Mabel’s fragile arms might break down. She made up her mind that she would meet the doctor concern immediately and talk about her condition even before she completes hr visit with others. She was so impatient that she couldn’t even wait. After long hours of serious discussion with the doctor Farah settles down the account and miscellaneous formalities at the hospital and decides to take Mabel along with her, promising him that she would bring her for all the regular check ups and for sure will continue her treatment. Meanwhile she gets to know what exactly had happened to Mabel, after consulting the nurse who used to attend her daily; one thing was sure that they shared a relation even deeper than the relation between a nurse and a patient. Farah always restricted herself from asking or letting Mabel remember anything concerning her past. She took care to spend ample time with Mabel even in all her busy schedules; despite of all her efforts, Mabel preferred to stay within the four walls of the room. She was scared to face people; Mabel felt that she was the central point of discussion any where…it is with the help of lots n lots of counseling sessions did Farah found results in getting Mabel in to her previous life they had shared back.
Once free from that trauma, Mabel wanted to move out; she didn’t feel like seeking Farah’s assistance in this case, because she knew that Farah had already done a lot for her. It is just for a fun that Mabel decided to trace Farah in her night outs; but that was truly shocking to spot her with guys in many suspicious conditions...Being a celebrity in the town even though that was quite natural, Mabel knew how Farah hated the concept of being on date….Still then she thought that what if Farah has changed during time…Back at home, Mabel decides to surprise her by letting her know that she saw her with guys in the pub. From her reaction, Mabel started feeling that perhaps it was not her whom she saw that day. This repeated for the week…Farah never agreed to the fact that she goes out with guys, neither could Mabel believe that she was lying to her. It is then that Mabel decides to search out for Farah’s personal diaries. Mabel knew that she had this habit of jotting things down in her diary; that too daily….She felt that she could get some details out of her diaries which would help her come to a conclusion. She felt that her studies as a psychology student would also favor her in getting a clear cut idea on what exactly happened to Farah. It is with lot of expectation did Mabel start off her search, It was quite unfortunate that her efforts almost went fruitless with spotting out just one diary. And that diary gave way to the twist in Farah’s life……
Years before when Mabel decided to live with Mike, she never thought that decision would have this influence in her friend’s life as well. Mabel’s absence pushed Farah in to deep dark sea of loneliness. She wanted someone to spend time with…but didn’t want to live like Mabel. This strong feeling in her might be the reason for the origin of dual identity in her, thought Mabel. As time passed, this character might have slowly started fixing its dominance in Farah; Mabel now had no idea on how to help her dear friend out of this. She silently kept a note on Farah’s behavior and her changing daily routine. Completely lost Farah….at a certain point of time forgets to come back home… During those sleepless nights Mabel tries her level best to trace out Farah….She was loosing all her hope. Talks about Farah slowly faded away; she and her once flourishing career disappeared within a nick of time.
Everyone forgot her…even the media’s (both the print and the visual).Her’s was just one another added on to the missing list. Paparazzi’s didn’t forget to cook up stories about the mystery behind her…when a few of them claimed that she is dead..a few felt that she is kidnapped or perhaps killed for her wealth..Hers was not a different story for anyone…A girl who almost conquered everything in her career…fan following….wealth..where did she go wrong????where is she now????She left somewhere… leaving a lot of questions unanswered……… As years passed away….even Mabel was forced to forget her..her long time soul mate Farah.One day she gets to know from some active workers of a social organization that they saw Farah in one Lunatic asylum.miles away from their town.This didn’t create much ripples in Mabel’s mind as she was already getting used to such fake news.But she never left those news unnoticed hoping to find Farah someday.She decides to leave in search of Farah with whatever information she had collected from them.Things were completely out of control there.Farah in her last trimester of her pregnancy never knew who was responsible for her baby,she even didn’t know that she was pregnant .she,herself behaved like a baby..without taking medicines and food properly:a victim to depression and suicide mania she had already tried to give up her life even before.Tied to heavy chains,in dirty clothes,shabbily grown hair,Mabel couldn’t stand the heart breaking scene any longer.
She was worried about Farah and her yet to be born baby.Doctors had completely given up her hope by then…Mabel still having faith prayed for Farah and her baby.Close to her last month of pregnancy Mabel could find positive changes in Farah.She recognized Mabel.cried out likea baby,apologized for all her mistakes..asked her to go back and take rest.Mabel moved back happily expecting miracles to happen..Few days later,Doctor informed her that she has given birth to a baby girl and that the mother and baby is fine in there..She couldn stop herself from visiting Farah and their baby.Baby was really cute like a little bundle of cotton..she looked pink with a few hairs on her head…she looked amazing. Mabel had to leave immediately for some work from there…Before leaving she spoke to doctor regarding the baby’s and Farah’s health.She made it sure that everything was going on fine.
But not all things in life goes in the way we want:atleast attimes or almost all the times..One fine morning..she gets to hear that Farah committed suicide. Itis without knowing what to do with her body, whom to hand over did the hospital authorities approach Mabel;the only link they had…She felt frozen for a moment. She remained speechless..without knowing what exactlyto do;the only thing she could say was that she would come……………..
Within no time,she reached the hospital……………there was no other question of she leaving the baby to live the life of an orphan.She knew that life would be the greatest punishment Farah’s daughter would have to undergo..Mabel didn’t have an idea on to whether she would be able to pay full justice to her soul mate’s daughter and now her’s too….Sasha..that will be my daughters name from now on….Decided Mabel when the doctor gently hand overed the baby to her.Now after years……………….revealing her and her parents identity and roots Mabel felt that she has done complete justice to her and her friend…………As Mabel completed their story Sasha broke down in to tears hugging Mabel tighter than ever she had.
Alarm started buzzing right on to her ears; it is 11:30 in the night. Mabel had to force herself out of the bed, half an hour to go; 27th October is Sasha’s birthday. Mabel has to prepare her favourite chocolate cake and gift wrap the ‘E’ series mobile which she has got for Sasha .She had been following this particular routine for the past 14 years, Sasha will turn 15 today. Seldom does Mabel remember that she is getting old, only when she cares to watch her wrinkled skin and the grey lock of hair. Now she is finding it difficult to run through her daily routine like how she did it a few years before. She knew that by now, her body is being tied by the heavy chains of tiredness; it kept on pulling her back. Mabel started expecting her gentle friend ‘death’ at any time. She felt that her life would be complete only when she reveals that truth to Sasha, about her identity and her parents. Mabel rushes to get everything ready and decides to take rest till it turns 12:00.It is then she spots an album kept on the top of the dining table.
Turning the stained yellowish pages of her album, she could recollect her tame less days of college life; An easy going psychology student, that was like a paradox; any one would expect some level of seriousness in a psychology student which Mabel always lacked. Memories stayed fresh just like the newly bloomed roses with little drops of dew on it. One photo showed Mabel tightly hugging on to a young beautiful girl, intimacy between them was clearly seen from the very frame. ’Farah’ whispered; Mabel with a heavy sigh. Right from the time they were in orphanage till college they shared a same apartment, not only the apartment; Mabel’s love to Farah was so very pure, immense and unconditional; till they parted ways when Mabel fell in love with her class mate Mike. Farah personally didn’t support the idea. She strongly felt it was not the time to be in an affair. There was a point of time when Mabel had to choose between Farah and Mike; she conveniently went on with Mike which eventually forced Farah to go in for a different apartment. Mabel painfully remembered how she sacrificed her soul mate for her love.
Situation worsened when Mike ruthlessly ditched Mabel washing his hands off from all his responsibilities when he got to know that she was pregnant. This was not what Mabel expected from him; brought up like a bastard in an orphanage she couldn’t even think of giving birth to a baby to live through allies in there .She now had to pay too much for her actions, she missed Farah’s presence badly. Without having an idea on what exactly to do, whether to abort or to even keep the baby; for the first time after Farah had left, she could clearly feel the helplessness of being born as a woman. She miserably regretted for having put a stop to her college life for Mike. With all his memories haunting her; mentally broken down Mabel finds refuge in drugs and alcohol. The feeling of loneliness had almost driven her go out of mind. One day, she falls unconscious near a tunnel and was rushed to a hospital, where she slips on to a comma sort of stage completely left unnoticed; she had lost her baby by then, out of severe bleeding.
Two years Later………………………………..
Farah at the time in the peak of her fashion career gets awarded as the best designer of the year. She always wanted to do some charity if she ever got the award. It was like a dream come true for her. It is out of her immense happiness that she decides to visit a number of orphanages and hospitals. Quite unexpectedly, she gets a chance to visit the hospital where Mabel had got admitted long before. Passing through each room and spending time with the patients she made it sure that; none should feel that she was doing it all for a mere publicity. In fact her Manager had a tough time in keeping the entire programme a secret and avoiding Media persons. She never dreamed even in the worst of her night mares that she will get to see Mabel in such a pathetic condition. Farah finds it damn difficult to stomach the fact that, the pale lean figure lying in front of her helplessly is her long time friend Mabel. She didn’t know on what should be her next move, she desperately wanted to hug Mabel….Tears had already started its way down her cheeks; Farah was scared even to hug her…she felt that Mabel’s fragile arms might break down. She made up her mind that she would meet the doctor concern immediately and talk about her condition even before she completes hr visit with others. She was so impatient that she couldn’t even wait. After long hours of serious discussion with the doctor Farah settles down the account and miscellaneous formalities at the hospital and decides to take Mabel along with her, promising him that she would bring her for all the regular check ups and for sure will continue her treatment. Meanwhile she gets to know what exactly had happened to Mabel, after consulting the nurse who used to attend her daily; one thing was sure that they shared a relation even deeper than the relation between a nurse and a patient. Farah always restricted herself from asking or letting Mabel remember anything concerning her past. She took care to spend ample time with Mabel even in all her busy schedules; despite of all her efforts, Mabel preferred to stay within the four walls of the room. She was scared to face people; Mabel felt that she was the central point of discussion any where…it is with the help of lots n lots of counseling sessions did Farah found results in getting Mabel in to her previous life they had shared back.
Once free from that trauma, Mabel wanted to move out; she didn’t feel like seeking Farah’s assistance in this case, because she knew that Farah had already done a lot for her. It is just for a fun that Mabel decided to trace Farah in her night outs; but that was truly shocking to spot her with guys in many suspicious conditions...Being a celebrity in the town even though that was quite natural, Mabel knew how Farah hated the concept of being on date….Still then she thought that what if Farah has changed during time…Back at home, Mabel decides to surprise her by letting her know that she saw her with guys in the pub. From her reaction, Mabel started feeling that perhaps it was not her whom she saw that day. This repeated for the week…Farah never agreed to the fact that she goes out with guys, neither could Mabel believe that she was lying to her. It is then that Mabel decides to search out for Farah’s personal diaries. Mabel knew that she had this habit of jotting things down in her diary; that too daily….She felt that she could get some details out of her diaries which would help her come to a conclusion. She felt that her studies as a psychology student would also favor her in getting a clear cut idea on what exactly happened to Farah. It is with lot of expectation did Mabel start off her search, It was quite unfortunate that her efforts almost went fruitless with spotting out just one diary. And that diary gave way to the twist in Farah’s life……
Years before when Mabel decided to live with Mike, she never thought that decision would have this influence in her friend’s life as well. Mabel’s absence pushed Farah in to deep dark sea of loneliness. She wanted someone to spend time with…but didn’t want to live like Mabel. This strong feeling in her might be the reason for the origin of dual identity in her, thought Mabel. As time passed, this character might have slowly started fixing its dominance in Farah; Mabel now had no idea on how to help her dear friend out of this. She silently kept a note on Farah’s behavior and her changing daily routine. Completely lost Farah….at a certain point of time forgets to come back home… During those sleepless nights Mabel tries her level best to trace out Farah….She was loosing all her hope. Talks about Farah slowly faded away; she and her once flourishing career disappeared within a nick of time.
Everyone forgot her…even the media’s (both the print and the visual).Her’s was just one another added on to the missing list. Paparazzi’s didn’t forget to cook up stories about the mystery behind her…when a few of them claimed that she is dead..a few felt that she is kidnapped or perhaps killed for her wealth..Hers was not a different story for anyone…A girl who almost conquered everything in her career…fan following….wealth..where did she go wrong????where is she now????She left somewhere… leaving a lot of questions unanswered……… As years passed away….even Mabel was forced to forget her..her long time soul mate Farah.One day she gets to know from some active workers of a social organization that they saw Farah in one Lunatic asylum.miles away from their town.This didn’t create much ripples in Mabel’s mind as she was already getting used to such fake news.But she never left those news unnoticed hoping to find Farah someday.She decides to leave in search of Farah with whatever information she had collected from them.Things were completely out of control there.Farah in her last trimester of her pregnancy never knew who was responsible for her baby,she even didn’t know that she was pregnant .she,herself behaved like a baby..without taking medicines and food properly:a victim to depression and suicide mania she had already tried to give up her life even before.Tied to heavy chains,in dirty clothes,shabbily grown hair,Mabel couldn’t stand the heart breaking scene any longer.
She was worried about Farah and her yet to be born baby.Doctors had completely given up her hope by then…Mabel still having faith prayed for Farah and her baby.Close to her last month of pregnancy Mabel could find positive changes in Farah.She recognized Mabel.cried out likea baby,apologized for all her mistakes..asked her to go back and take rest.Mabel moved back happily expecting miracles to happen..Few days later,Doctor informed her that she has given birth to a baby girl and that the mother and baby is fine in there..She couldn stop herself from visiting Farah and their baby.Baby was really cute like a little bundle of cotton..she looked pink with a few hairs on her head…she looked amazing. Mabel had to leave immediately for some work from there…Before leaving she spoke to doctor regarding the baby’s and Farah’s health.She made it sure that everything was going on fine.
But not all things in life goes in the way we want:atleast attimes or almost all the times..One fine morning..she gets to hear that Farah committed suicide. Itis without knowing what to do with her body, whom to hand over did the hospital authorities approach Mabel;the only link they had…She felt frozen for a moment. She remained speechless..without knowing what exactlyto do;the only thing she could say was that she would come……………..
Within no time,she reached the hospital……………there was no other question of she leaving the baby to live the life of an orphan.She knew that life would be the greatest punishment Farah’s daughter would have to undergo..Mabel didn’t have an idea on to whether she would be able to pay full justice to her soul mate’s daughter and now her’s too….Sasha..that will be my daughters name from now on….Decided Mabel when the doctor gently hand overed the baby to her.Now after years……………….revealing her and her parents identity and roots Mabel felt that she has done complete justice to her and her friend…………As Mabel completed their story Sasha broke down in to tears hugging Mabel tighter than ever she had.
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